Ill keep my head high anyways

Hey everyone.
Ok so0 if you haven't been informed Jared lil brother got stabbed in the side of the chest by a sting ray while they Kelleys were in panama city. Yes, Punctured a lung had to get a chest tube put in. started doing well for like 3 days and was suppose to get out of the hospital Wendsay the 1st. So jared was still gunna beable to come visit me. Which i might add I have lost sleep being so anxious and excited about him comen. And might i add i completely understand him not comen b/c of clayton still being in the hospital But i was just informed that Clayton isn't doing as well as the doctored wanted. Hes haven to sleep with a oxygen mask tonight and not going to beable to get out wednsday. So now Sweet jared is haven to decided comen here for being there for his brother. I was like "jared stay baby, i do not expect you to leave your brother" But inside i was so0o hurt... not bc he was thinking about staying but nc i was so0o excited and i have so much planned. I feel so bad for him tho. Idk he doesnt know wht hes going to do yet. But I know he will choose the best for him. Ill be there for him with either decision.

I am so0o excited still tho for all my sisters to get in. We will have so much fun regardless what jarbear does. Yes, we will all miss him greatly but he know that hes doing the right thing. Ill let everyone know whats he choose later.

Faith, Family, Love

Hey everyone,
So Today I took kinley to chik Fla Lay (spelling help) and ate and then she got to play in the playground. When we walked in the playground there were so many kids and it was kinda small. Kinley didn't really know what to do at first so of course her big ole' aunnie took her up the steps after waiting on this lil boy to move his nasty feet out of the way and through the tunnels that were the size of my pinky i felt like, till we finally got to the slide. Once we got there kinley of course decided she didnt feel comfortable going down it alone!! SO being the GREAT aunt I am I had kinley in my lap "not toughing anything" crawling and pushing down the slide. after we got done playing Aunnie needed to go run some errands. Soo I went to Dollar Tree to buy everything i could on my list bc its the store where everything is honestly only $1 and thats my kinda of store. Of course i had Bug with me but she just makes its more fun. Well, on a good day. Today tho she did the funniest thing ever. I gave her one of those old fashion blow pops that has gum in the middle. anyways as we are looking and walking i notice her dress keeps getting dirty with her saliva and i say kinley your drooling and she replays with" well my mouth keeps watering and when i take my sucker out theres to much and it rolls down my body". I said well you have to swallow when it gets full in your mouth and you have to keep your lips around the sucker as you take it out so the water does't fall out. she says" well i wish i could bc the water is so0o yummy!!!!" haha i just laughed so hard in the store. She can be so0 cute sometimes.. After we did all our shoping we came home and as i get all the sacks out of the car walk around to get kinley my fone rings. Kinley in one hand bags in the other i realised it was macy calling due to her speacialy hand piackd ringtone (the remedy- total macy classic) reach in to grab and of course It falls. Yes, right onto the "fone hating" pavement and the trackball on my BB go flying.. GREAT just what i needed a gimped cell fone. but found the piece poped it back in and came in to played with some toys with kinley while we wait for macy to get home. Macy got home shortly after we did from taken her test and needed to go fix her tire. So the 2 of them just left and Ahh.. Peace and QUITE to relax :) I dont have much planed for tonight, but Jared gets in next week and i hope to be busy this weekend so i have alot to do before the weekend gets here. Getting my hair did on thursday which i am excited for. Hopefully i like it since im actually getting it done by a salon. I can't tell you the last time i went somewhere for color. My mom always have done it and to be honest.. she does a Great job and it saves us money. So thats on Thursday i havent quite figuered out what i am doing this weekend b/c my grandparants leave and they are taken the car i have been so fortune to drice while i have been home. I dont want to get everything done to early or the time will go by so slow before my BEBE gets here. Which i can not wait for him to get here and all my sisters get to meet and get to know him. I have alot planned while hes here and i hope he just ends up loving it all.
I'll update soon and let everyone know whats going on!
Whitney congrats with the sweet twins. They are just precious..

SuMmEr FuN

Hey everyone!
I know it has been forever since i last bloged but so much has been going on.
I went out on the lake just last week with some old friends. i ended up having so much fun.This is me and Gage on the boat.
joshua and I also on the boat. We had so much fun. These boys can always make me laugh. Zach got on the boat complaining about wanting to fish and so of course.. Zach got to fish and the very first cast he threw it got caught right in the trees. hahaha so funny. That night everyone got in for kinleys dance recital so we had a big dinner i had to come home and get ready for. here are some picture or kinley and her Dance.



She did so good.. i think she was the best but thats just me. LOL
I was so glad finally our whole family got together. It has been christmas since we all have been together. which really makes me sad to think about us getting together only 2 times a year but hopefully that will change in 2 years..
I love you all... Well mommy and daddy and the rest left yesterday. Sad <3 Its always so sad saying goodbyes even tho ill see them again in July When MY BABAYYYY comes to visit texas. YAy i can't wait. I have to go run since i have been running lately making sure i dont get behind so when fall tryouts come I wont be the returner who cant make me the loop. haha
I would write more but i have to go the maid is here and im in bed still. lol

Home Sweet Home

I finally was back home in Texas June 1st. It has been since Christmas when i was home last which makes me sad to think about bc thats a long time to me to be away from my home and family. So as soon as i got home kinley and macy were already outside waiting for our arrival. which Kinley has gottin so big it makes me tear up to think about how fast she is growing up. I remeber rocking her to bed with a bottle. ughh But after we got in and settled down not to mention i picked macys bed with kinley like the good ole days. use 3 girls living in the same room even tho in our old house me and macy had different beds. you gotta love the closenesss of the family haha we dont mind being in one big comfy bed all snuggled up laughing and cutting up. I had a dentist apt. the next day for my wisdom teeth and figured out they could come out that day well infact i had 5 minuates @ the house to chnage and get read for my teeth to be pulled out of my face. little did i know what was comen. Next thing i know i her " her face is turning blue, we need to take her into the hospital." yep.... so there i go loaded into the back of the ambluence car ready to go to the hospital. Got there and its all fuzzy with my memory bc of meds and everything else but lets just say it was a very scarry day/night for my mother and I. Which i should mention how lucky i am to have a mother like her. Idk of any other parent who would of been so strong @ time so weak. I love you mother and thank you for being so strong. But im just now haven time to breathe everything in.. the smell of famillaraity, haven the comfort of knowning where things are, and haven ppl to see, things to do all the time, FAMILY to hangout with and laugh. If only Jared was here. oh yep i know. but he does bring this joy with him everywhere he goes. I can't wait for him to get intown and see the city. i miss home so much when i come and visit. You just have this feeling of security when you step off the plane and on the grounds of your home roots. Lincoln came intown this weekend yay.. Man how i have missed her so much. It felt so good to get to hug her, it had been a good minuate since the last hug i got. I can't even begin to explain how much i miss all my sisters. I wish sometimes that everyone could see us 4 girls together and all the fun we have when are with each other. But now that my eyes are staring to water. change in subject.
MADDIE graduates today. YAY ! that is such a big deal. i hope she has such a blessed next 4 years in whatever her sweet lil life may bring. I hope that tomorrow i willbe feeling up to actually doing somehting with my life unlike the past 4 days.