Hello Lovey's,
I know it has been forever since i last wrote on this. But I am writing now! Can't promise ill keep it up bc we all know ill probably wont but i am going to try.
For those who know me know that my summer started off a little rough! Jared and I broke up and yes, of course it effected me. But After coming back to Greenville and stuff taking place making me see this whole new well him.. Needless to say I'm doing Better than I ever was.
I am so blessed to know and have such a close walk with the lord. I know he sure has takin cre of me through this all. More importantly he has shown me that I am not in control of my life and I am so thankful for that. Also during this time I've gotten to see things that have made me realize how thankful I am that those events did happened the way they did b/c i know looking back I wouldn't of been strong enough to ever do it and I would of ended up unhappy.
Everyone who has been through a break up knows that in the beginning its hard to find yourself again. Due to the fact that you have been forming habits and thinking of someone before you for so long it almost was 2nd nature. What i have found out during all this, is that I sorta lost myself in someone else! Even the little details about who i am changes in a weird way without you even recognizing it at the time.
And if your like me, you finally get to see the real and true other person. You begin to figure out more about that person then you ever knew while dating him. Which is kinda funny how that works but its totally true. You get a better idea how character traits and personality which thankfully is normally a negative and turn off.
The coolest thing about a break up is once the pain is gone and trust me It will LEAVE.. haha luckily mine took less then most peoples ( that's what I have been told at least) But when its gone you feel this freedom, this weight lifted off your shoulders. You start to find yourself and remember the fun small details that got pushed aside. You begin to build that inner love and confidence for yourself instead of finding it from that one person. And honestly, most of the time you realize you were to good for and better off without him. especially after getting to figure out who the real "he is". You start enjoying life more then you do before that relationship. You start to really evaluate things and make more out of life. You start noticing other people noticing things about you that you once knew but again forgot. which makes life fun and enjoyable.
So needless to say I am enjoying life so much right now. I am blessed and so glad that i have had my family, friends and most importantly My God right by side through this terrible but totally glad it happened experience!!
